This letter is to my family, friends, and fans. 

Dearest,

I am sorry.
I’m sorry that this year was not a great. I’m sorry that it seemed like I didn’t care. I’m sorry that I did not become a better person this year. I’m sorry that I’m not a better mother/sister/cousin/daughter/aunt/niece/granddaughter. I’m sorry that I’m not a better friend. I’m sure I can’t be a role model. I’m sorry that I didn’t write a bunch of books this year. I’m sorry that I was absent this year. I’m sorry I didn’t interact this year. I’m sorry that there is always a delay with me. I’m sorry I’m late. I’m sorry that I can’t seem to get social media. I’m sorry that I can’t make any more promises. And I’m sorry if you think this is an excuse. It’s not.

2013 was supposed to be my new start. I was divorced in 2012 and I was forced to start over… but I am failing.

You see I went in 2013 with high expectations. I wanted to fulfill my dreams of becoming a full-time writer, but I didn’t. I had a good momentum in the beginning of the year but my spirit broke when the carpel tunnel returned to my left hand. I thought about quitting writing but that’s my dream and the HR thing is just the means to an end. I wanted to quit my day job because I hate it, but the funny coincidence I was ultimately laid off of one after quitting another. And lastly, I thought my love affair would take off and become my last romance, but it’s still budding. I guess what I am saying is that I f**ked up!

I don’t want sorrow or pity or empathy or an emotional bullshit… I want you to tell me to get off my ass and make my dreams my reality! You can help me with wise word and happy thoughts. Keep me in your mind with positivity and all of that energy will help me. I’m not afraid to say that I think I’ve been depressed but I refuse to take that into 2014.

So here’s my plan to win you back.
     1)   Think Happy Thoughts!
     2)   Write books!
     3)   Tell you often that, I LOVE YOU!

Will you accept my apology and push me when you see me dragging?

That’s all for this year!


Smooches, 

Lola
Scavenger Hunt


Last month, there was a scavenger hunt about all of my books. It's a little over due, but it's time to pick the winner!

Congratulations to Stephanie Martin Patrick!

Hello,
By now you all are aware that I am in the midst of an unconventional romance. As much as I’d like to admit that I am having some book love affair that isn’t the case. The only thing about our romance that has some bookish flare is how we met. I will not give too many details because he is VERY private but I will say that we met in high school.  I hope that fact alone will change our unconventional romance into a full-fledged love story.

Our relationship is not perfect but then again our whole courtship hasn’t been ideal. Here I am a divorced mother and there he was a single guy comfortable with his life.  The first few months were more like a therapy session than anything. I was in denial about what I wanted and he was cautiously tip toeing around. We had ups, downs, and we’ve even been on the outs. I’ve made life-changing decisions without talking to him and he continued life as usual.
Recently, we’ve been dancing around the idea of being in a relationship but we still aren’t quite there yet. As he stated when we first started “hanging out” (I was unwilling to listen), I needed to be comfortable with myself before I could get comfortable in a new relationship.  I didn’t think he knew much about relationships and I always thought the only way to get over the old one was to get into a new one (my therapist loved me, I fired her and started this blog). So, essentially he stood in the same spot while I ran in circles. Occasionally, he would run with me (to humor me) but he would eventually stop and let me go. It wasn’t until one of my many aha moments that I figured the sh*t out. Now here we are… moving forward together, slowly.

The fact is now I LOVE him (I haven’t told him that yet so keep that to yourself). I question my love everyday and myself… I mean can I love someone that I am not in a relationship with? Does he feel the same way? Will he say I love you back… and mean it? Of course, I could be over thinking this as I tend to do but it’s my friends that follow my love life closely thinks that we are a couple and refer to us as such. However, I don’t feel like we are there yet, hell I am tired from running in circles, but it’s awkward to say no he’s not my boyfriend so I just let them think that's what we are.   

That got me thinking maybe expectations can ruin a good thing. Maybe WE are creating our own rules for OUR relationship. Maybe WE are in a relationship and neither of US knows it. I am happy knowing that we are on the road to happiness and one day we will be in love with each other, if we’re not already.
Are you confused yet? Ha-ha, welcome to my life. I stay in a perpetual state of confusion.
That’s it for now. 

Smooches 

Lola 
Hot Autumn Nights Blog Hop
1) Please make sure you indicate where in the world you will ship your book/prize to (US Only, Int., etc…) next to your name in the sign-ups 2) Please copy the link code and post it on your giveaway. We appreciate a link back to this blog. 3) In order to get the word out before the hop, please post the Hot Autumn Nights button/badge on your sidebar, and on the day of the blog, please have the image on your post. It just makes it very recognizable for visitors. 4) The topic is autumn nights. “What’s your idea of a hot autumn night?” Hot tubs, hot cocoa with your honey, or snuggling in front of a crackling fire? Pretty much anything goes. But please keep it PG13. 5) You must include a giveaway (can be a book, gift card, book swag, etc).Readers should be able to enter with only a comment (no signing up, following, etc unless they are additional options) 6) LIMITED TO THE FIRST 100 ENTRANTS. Grand Prize! In addition to the giveaway at each blog, one commenter from the tour will win at least a $55 gift card to Barnes & Noble. We are accepting donations to increase the size of our Grand Prize and if this is something you’d like to do, you can send your donation ($1 to $5 would be great!) to bellamediamanagement@gmail.com and please put in Hot and Deadly Blog Hop in Paypal’s description.
Hot Halloween Heroes Giveaway Hop
The Rules Sign up using the LinkyTools list below. Sign up closes on Saturday 26th October 2013. Please have SPACES in your blog name. Long strings of characters will break people’s blogs and I’ll be forced to remove you or edit your name. Please state whether your giveaway is international or otherwise by including INT, US, US/CA etc after your name. Include the hop button on your blog side bar and link it to this page. Code is available below. Your giveaway MUST go live on October 29th at 12:01am, regardless of where you are. Sites will be checked on October 29th and those without a giveaway will be removed. Your giveaway MUST be related to paranormal romance heroes in some way, whether that’s a book / ebook, paranormal romance swag, or paranormal romance prizes in general, such as jewellery, etc. Consider writing a short piece about why you love paranormal romance heroes, what it is about them that makes you tick, or even sharing an excerpt from your favourite paranormal romance! Your post MUST include the Hot Halloween Heroes Giveaway Hop graphic, and must link to the two host websites. I’ll provide information closer to the time via email. Please also include the LinkyTools list (you can get the code by clicking the link below the LinkyTools list) Remember, it’s nicer to include the script than just link to the host blogs. It’s all about sharing the love. Most of all. Have some fun!
Snarkology Paranormal Blog Hop
According to Ancient Greek myth, there were several examples of what might have been vampires. They were not considered to be undead though. They used the terms Empusa, Lamia, and stringes to describe them, but time evolved the first two words into witches and demons respectively. Empusa and Lamia are both actual people referred to in myth, but stringes is the strix of ancient Roman mythology. Stringes were thought to feed on children and young men. They have been seen in Homer's Odyssey. According to Wikipedia, "In Homer's tale, the undead are too insubstantial to be heard by the living and cannot communicate with them without drinking blood first. In the epic, when Odysseus journeyed into Hades, he was made to sacrifice a black ram and a black ewe so that the shades there could drink its blood and communicate."

More modern Greek belief is actually in something called βρυκόλακας, vrykolakas, though also referred to as καταχανάδες, katakhanades. The belief in vampires became so widespread that it became a custom to dig up their deceased after three years, coat them in wine, and let a priest say a prayer over the body. If the body did not appear appropriately decomposed, they had other methods of dealing with the so-called vampire. They had reasons they believed that someone became a vampire and perhaps the corpses dug up that met these requirements were thought to be a vampire without any sufficient evidence. If someone had been excommunicated, had desecrated a religious day, committed a great crime, or died alone, the body was suspect.

As you can see, the Greeks have had a history that involves vampirism. My Spellbound series has its own unique connection between Greek myth and vampires. That is why I am giving away a signed set of the first three books in the Spellbound series (Bound to Remember, Unbound, Bound to You) to one lucky entrant. This giveaway is open to US residents only and the winner will be selected using Random.org via rafflecopter.

a Rafflecopter giveaway
Wicked Warriors Halloween Hop
This October, we will be giving away a GRAND PRIZE of a Kindle Paperwhite for the "Wicked Warriors Halloween" blog hop. Authors, we invite you to join us and help sponsor this great hop. We are asking for donations of funds for the grand prize or gift card if the winner is international, along with the donation of your books if you are an author to go on the E-Reader or the international gift-packages. There is going to be ONE winner for the E-reader, plus 5 winners for autographed signed copies of Unbound. The e-reader will come with a digital copy. THE RULES 1. Posts must be up at midnight on the 23th. We will be checking!! Any post not up by the allotted time will be deleted from the event. So if you are in a different time zone, post the night before. It is ok to be early but not ok to be late. 2. Posts must include the hop button which we will be sending out to you a week before it is supposed to go live. 3. Posts must include the linky list, the links to the next three bloggers, or a link back to BTS Hop Page. We want everyone to be able to hop to all the sites. 4. Your giveaway can be anything but it must include either something book related (print books, e-books, gift-cards, swag, reading lights) or Halloween themed. Designers are more than welcome to join in as well and offer services, different buttons or blog design items, as well as packages.