This letter is to my family, friends, and fans.
I am sorry.
I’m sorry that this year was not a great. I’m sorry that it seemed like I didn’t care. I’m sorry that I did not become a better person this year. I’m sorry that I’m not a better mother/sister/cousin/daughter/aunt/niece/granddaughter. I’m sorry that I’m not a better friend. I’m sure I can’t be a role model. I’m sorry that I didn’t write a bunch of books this year. I’m sorry that I was absent this year. I’m sorry I didn’t interact this year. I’m sorry that there is always a delay with me. I’m sorry I’m late. I’m sorry that I can’t seem to get social media. I’m sorry that I can’t make any more promises. And I’m sorry if you think this is an excuse. It’s not.
2013 was supposed to be my new start. I was divorced in 2012 and I was forced to start over… but I am failing.
You see I went in 2013 with high expectations. I wanted to fulfill my dreams of becoming a full-time writer, but I didn’t. I had a good momentum in the beginning of the year but my spirit broke when the carpel tunnel returned to my left hand. I thought about quitting writing but that’s my dream and the HR thing is just the means to an end. I wanted to quit my day job because I hate it, but the funny coincidence I was ultimately laid off of one after quitting another. And lastly, I thought my love affair would take off and become my last romance, but it’s still budding. I guess what I am saying is that I f**ked up!
I don’t want sorrow or pity or empathy or an emotional bullshit… I want you to tell me to get off my ass and make my dreams my reality! You can help me with wise word and happy thoughts. Keep me in your mind with positivity and all of that energy will help me. I’m not afraid to say that I think I’ve been depressed but I refuse to take that into 2014.
So here’s my plan to win you back.
1) Think Happy Thoughts!
2) Write books!
3) Tell you often that, I LOVE YOU!
Will you accept my apology and push me when you see me dragging?
That’s all for this year!